A memoir of an eldest child

I am sincerely dedicating this blog entry for all the oldest child here on earth, and perhaps to the whole wide universe (since I believe that humans are not the only group of  living specie who can think cannily).

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A close friend of mine texted me one evening and told me how tired she is in their house. I mean, she's tired⌐inside and out. Or, should I say, mentally and physically stressed out of the prevailing situation that she is encountering right now.. She's the oldest child of the three siblings. I met them all, and witnessed my friend's hard work... I by myself experienced the same thing as her, for the reason that I, too, was an eldest child.

Being the eldest child in the family poses tons of pros and cons. Some people say that being the oldest one means getting all the attention, love and care from the parents. Some would utter how lucky they are and blah blah blahhh. But hey dude, try to empathize with us. We are not a perfect human being. We also experience a lot of troubles and vexations. I think being the eldest does not guarantee power and unending freedom.

What did I learn in the latter episodes of my life as an eldest sister? Well, I can summarized SOME of it into the following sentences:

1. MOVE FORWARD.
2. BE STRONG.
3. BEING HIGHLY OPINIONATED IS NOT ALWAYS BAD. ;)
4. ENJOY LIFE TO THE FULLEST.
5. ALWAYS GIVE ATTENTION TO YOUR LOVED ONES.
6. LEARN HOW TO LISTEN TO YOUR PARENT'S PROBLEMS WHEN THEY ARE OPENING SOME ISSUES IN.
7. LEND A HAND.
8. YOU CANNOT LIVE BY YOURSELF.
9. TRUST GOD WITH ALL YOUR HEART.
10. NEVER GIVE UP JUST BECAUSE YOU FAILED ON SOMETHING. MAKE USE OF THAT FAILURE TO BECOME SUCCESSFUL.
11. NEVER COMPARE YOURSELF TO OTHER PEOPLE.
12. FORGIVE.
13. PRAY.
14. SET-UP YOUR GOALS AND OBJECTIVES IN LIFE.
15. DON'T GET BIAS.
16. BE HONEST TO YOURSELF AND TO OTHER PEOPLE.
17. LEARN TO TRUST.
18. CONTINUE TO LEARN.
19. BE YOURSELF.
20. EMBRACE YOUR FLAWS AND IMPERFECTIONS.
21. BE CONTENTED FOR WHAT YOU HAVE

I'll never regret that God made me the eldest daughter in our family.  Although sometimes, I feel bad about it (due to un-ending work load, high expectations, pressures ), I still believes that it shaped my inner self into something that made me a kind of person that I am today. I AM PROUD TO BE AN ELDEST CHILD IN OUR FAMILY. =)

free-fall

Right now, I feel happy, contented, motivated and beloved. =) I think it's really a good thing to wash out all the negative thoughts that we are contemplating--all worries, problems and issues. I know God has a better plan on us. It just takes time and appreciation. And of course.. a combination of love, trust, honesty, faith and hope. =)

Girl Power * from FB

ANG MGA BABAE.....

1. Moody: Inborn na sa mga babae to. Kung badtrip kami, wag niyo nang sasabayan.

2. Pag sinabi naming nagtatampo kami, lambing lang katapat: Yung salitang tampo way lang namin yun para sabihing lambingin niyo kami. Konting I love you niyo lang, okay na kami.

3. Gusto namin yung palagi kaming kino-compliment: Pag may bago sa itsura namin, gusto naming mapansin niyo. Kasi nakakataas ng self-confidence namin yun.

4. Pag napansin niyong naging sersyoso yung mga text namin, may mali: Kapag ganun, may nagawa kayong di namin nagustuhan. Kaya be alert. Kapag sinabe naming wala, meron talaga. Nahihiya lang kami. Kaya pilitin niyo kaming sabihin sa inyo. At pagtapos naming masabi, konting lambing lang. Back to normal na ulit.

5. Selosa kami: Kaya iwasan niyong makipag harutan sa ibang girls. Lalo na sa harapan namin. Pero may ibang babae na tahimik lang kung mag-selos. Inoobserabahan lang kayo. Pero kapag napuno, simula na ng away.

6. Kaming mga babae, normal lang ang ma-attract sa mga gwapo: Hanggang tingin lang kami. Kasi hindi naman na namin makikita ulit. Ma-attract man kami sa 1M lalaki, ang puso namin ay para lang sa tunay naming mahal. Ganun din naman kayong mga lalaki. Kapag nakakita ng maganda at sexy. Magaling lang kayong magtago.

7. Kaming mga babae, pinagmamalaki namin yung mga mahal namin ng hindi nila nalalaman: Katulad nalang sa mga GM (Group Message), Facebook at TUMBLR.

8. Ayaw namin sa mga manliligaw na nagmamadali: Yung tipo ng mga lalaking laging nagtatanong kung kailan ba namin sila sasagutin. Naiirita kami. Kaya dapat maging matiyaga kayo kasi dun namin nalalaman kung sino talaga kayo.

9. Kapag malungkot o tahimik kami, gusto namin ng yakap galing sa inyo: Kasi iba yung pakiramdam kapag hawak niyo na kami. Gumagaan yung pakiramdam namin. :">

10. Gustong gusto namin yung mga lalaking malaki ang respeto samin: Yung tipong pag ayaw namin magpa-kiss, hindi niyo gagawin. Instead, lalambingin ka na lang sa ibang paraan. Ang pinaka gusto naming kiss, kiss on the forehead. It symbolizes, respect.

11. Ang nagpapa-turn on samin ay yung lalaking protective: Yung kapag kasama namin kayo, feeling namin safe na safe kami. Walang mangyayaring masama at hindi kami ilalagay sa panganib.

12. Ayaw namin sa lalaking hanggang text lang: Kung mahal niyo talaga kami, patunayan niyo sa personal. Wag yung sa text lang kayo magaling. Magpaka-lalaki kayo!

13. Sobra kaming natutuwa sa mga lalaking ma-effort: Yung kahit walang special day, feel mo eh special ang araw araw niyo. Kasi sobrang nakakatuwa kapag ang lalaki laging nagpuput in ng effort. Feeling naming babae eh, isa kaming prinsesa.

14. Ang pangarap naming mga babae yung ipapakilala kami ng mga lalaki sa kanilang mga barkada at lalo na sakanilang pamilya: Feeling namin kami na yung pinaka maswerteng babae sa mundo. Kasi iilan lang ang lalaking naglalakas loob ipakilala kami sa parents at barkada nila. Yung iba kasi nahihiya. At feeling din nmin angkin na angkin na namin ang isang lalaki dahil nakilala na namin ang mga taong bumubuo sa buhay niya. 

15. Magaling kaming mag-pretend: Kapag nasasaktan kami, nagpapaka-manhind kami. Kapag may nakitang di maganda, nagbubulagbulagan kami. Kapag may narinig na mali, nagbibingibingihan kami. Pero kapag mag-isa nalang kami, dun kami naglalabas ng sakit. Dun kami umiiyak. Kaya ang pangarap naming lalaki is yung sensitive enough sa mga nararamdaman namin. Yung kayang magtanong hanggang sa umamin kami.

Intention vs. initative

There is a difference between intention and initiative, and nowhere is that difference more stark than in love. We can have the intent to love others, but without initiative, without action, without clear demonstrations of respect and active caring, concern, and compassion for another, intention alone remains useless, soulless. Thinking is not love, giving is.

- Brendon Burchard, author of Life's Golden Ticket

Hello summertime =)
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Yeyyyy! Bakasyon na ulit! :) Time to refresh and to chill out! weeee!

"Forgiving does not erase the bitter past. A healed memory is not a deleted memory. Instead, forgiving what we cannot forget creates a new way to remember. We change the memory of our past into a hope for our future." - Louis B. Smedes

Thoughts and reflections

I am a step a way in reaching one of my greatest dream-- to become a member of our College Student Council. I will not forget that moment when Paul Baloja called and asked me to join their partylist for the upcoming College of Arts and Sciences Student Council Election. I was given the privilege to run as a their secretary.. the thought of it excites me. Ideas came running down my mind.. The projects and activities that I will do.. and many more. But I shuddered in the fact that my time was occupied by big task, that is, my working hours in my alma mater. I quietly weighed down the possible pros and cons that may occur once I agreed to run... I'm a bit in rage, sad and contemplative both at hand, and .. full of regrets. T.T Madami nakong pinalagpas na opportunities :((((( But I have no choice. I wish I have all the time here on earth.. but that's so selfish of me to think.. I think it's not yet my time for this kind of circumstance.

*opportunity only knocks once.